Oh hi adulthood!

First of all.... I feel old. My best friend just had a baby and I am going up there tomorrow to help her move. I am in that "state" of adulthood, where I am helping friends plan weddings and help them with their kids. Yeah yeah, I am still single but that's fine with me actually. Adulthood has woken me up to some stuff these past few days that I really never considered. Like how crazy my life is going to be this fall. Anyways.... I have something brewing that I am kind of excited and nervous about. It's something I've done before and I am not going to lie, I was just as nervous and excited then. I won't go into it on here until I take care of some things first but just be praying for me while I jump into this "game" again. There's a lot I need to do to make this game easier for me to play so I'm scared lol.

Second of all... I went to the ENT. I had to wait 1 hour 20 minutes to see him but then I found out in the end that I have to have "surgery". And really it's not surgery but we have to consider it that since they are putting me under so that my muscles will be fully relaxed. It looks like my TMJ is hurting because my jaw is dislocated and I have open bite disorder. Mine is not as bad as some of the cases I saw when I was researching it but now that he has pointed it out to me it makes sense, my front top teeth do not touch my front bottom teeth, at all. So, he's going to put me under on July 30th (thank goodness dad is coming up here to be at the hospital with me, I am kind of grumpy when I am put under) and pop my jaw back into place so he can fit me for an appliance that will go in my mouth to fix the open bite. Now, the one thing this has me wondering is how am I going to look after this is done? I mean will I improve my looks or will it make me look odd. I am kind of scared for that but I have to realize that I can not continue to live on pain pills because of TMJ pain. Funny how I battled breast cancer without flinching (okay, maybe a little) but something like TMJ sends me straight to the ER. Hopefully this fixes a lot of issues and I can continue to work on my outward appearance.

Speaking of which... I still haven't weighed myself. I think I am going to have to break down and buy a scale for the apartment. I had one but the mover broke it soooo I need a new one. Maybe that'll be a stop I make in Greenville tomorrow so I can update you guys with my weight on Saturday. I went and bought groceries and bought more at home stuff though Chick Fil A is still tempting me. And the other problem I am having is I am hungry coming home from work so I stop at Wendy's or Jack in the Box (mmm Sausage Crossiant). I have been without Dr. Pepper in my apartment for a couple of days now so I am proud of that fact even if I have replaced it with Raspberry Lemonaide (whoops!).

Anyways, that's all for now. Hope everyone is well. More to come on this new "adventure" in my life soon :).

Brenda